I’m BACK!
I had a breakdown for 5 days.
It’s always darkest before the dawn….
The phrase “it’s always darkest before the dawn” was first used by English theologian Thomas Fuller in 1650. It appeared in his work A Pisgah-Sight of Palestine and the Confines Thereof. But, this doesn’t mean that he was the first person to ever use the phrase or one with similar meaning.
Families, anyone? Wow they can hurt and trigger. My mother is ill and as some of you know we are estranged. I do not know what is wrong with her but I can tell you that in years gone by I rescued her from death at least three times: when she had heart failure, contracted pneumonia and when she fell down some cellar steps in Cornwall and I had to take a train to collect her and her dog and look after her 24/7 for a week without help.
But of course as far as anyone in my family is concerned, I have never done anything to help her, so I am cut out of the loop.
Though after she told me last year that she hated me since birth and had never loved me, a truth I had always secretly acknowledged, you would think I would not care!
I stupidly thought I was invulnerable, I got hurt, I veered away from my very regimented eating plan which helps keep me sober.
